Follow Your Heart

For many years I have felt the desire to be a part of something much greater than myself. Several times throughout my life I have felt a desire in my heart to do something but I didn't know what that “something” was. I strongly believe God places things in your life that is your purpose. The purpose I found was going to and working for Haiti. I was not fearful about the path God laid out for me but I was nervous about the unknown.

June of 2018 was my first time ever going outside of the country and my first time flying on a plane. I was super nervous, yet so excited at the same time. I realized quickly that airports are nothing like the ones in the movies. Once I was able to get past security and find my seat on the plane, the nervousness I felt just simply dissipated into thin air. I prayed for a safe flight to Haiti and a safe flight home. During flight, while we were crossing the ocean, I was amazed by this view of God’s creation I had never seen before.

As we were flying over PAP Airport, looking out of the window, I immediately got what I call “ The Haiti Feeling”. You may ask, “what is The Haiti Feeling?” For me, the “Haiti Feeling” is the feeling of  “I am ready and want to help”. My heart immediately filled with love for this country and its people. As I was looking out of my plane window I began to see shacks. My heart hurt for this country because I had never witnessed living conditions like this before. I knew from this moment on that I had found out why God had placed missions on my heart years before.

We exited the plan, went through the airport, and out to the other side where we began to meet up with our other team members. I thought it was going to be kind of awkward, but it wasn't.  Everyone bonded so quickly and became friends right from the start. I knew this was going to be an amazing week. We all loaded onto the bus and headed through town. I will never forget my first experience in the chaotic Haiti traffic.  After a long drive, or so it felt, we arrived at the school. As we were pulling into the school all of the children came running out and were so excited to see us. My heart immediately filled with joy and happiness seeing the smiles on the kids' faces. This was only the beginning of my amazing experience in Haiti.

While I could share each moment of the week and all the goodness involved, Haiti was also a spiritual battle all week long. There were times when I knew the devil was trying to pull my heart away from the amazing things we were doing. I prayed and God gave me strength. Every day in Haiti there was something new that really touched my heart. I built friendships and began to love the people of Haiti even though we couldn't speak the same language.

Haiti was not only an answered prayer for me but it also filled the void in my heart I felt like I was missing. The hardest part for me was leaving Haiti. I am usually the type of person to hide my emotions but the last day of Haiti was most certainly heartbreaking because I didn't want to leave. I felt that I had so much more to do. I remember taking off from the airport and looking down over Haiti. A few tears ran down my face because I was so thankful for this experience and thankful that God had blessed me with an amazing team. Most importantly, I was thankful for the spiritual growth I gained while I was in Haiti. I am going back this year and cannot wait to see my friends in Haiti. I realized after the trip that I took a step outside of my comfort zone and followed my heart by following the desire God placed in my heart. Because of that small step I have found the purpose of my life.